Today I woke up feeling like I needed to use my self-care exception, surprisingly. I had the day off so I ran a few errands, talked to my mom, and took a three hour nap. When I woke up I was feeling fresh and ready to go to the gym (success!) and do some cleaning. Throughout the rest of my day, I had to resist the ideas that kept popping into my head: Maybe I'll see if my roommates want to go the bar! Maybe I'll go shopping for a new pair of yoga pants! Instead, I'm going to enjoy doing NOTHING.
HOW I LEFT MY COMFORT ZONE:
I thought today would be a day off from the Exercises, but I'm realizing that doing nothing is truly hard for me. I struggle to believe that a day off is not wasted if I've spent it in my apartment or in my neighborhood. I struggle to believe that a nap isn't wasted sunshine. And it took real effort to resist the urge to fill up my evening with plans and excursions.
WHAT I LEARNED TODAY:
I need to take a chill pill. I've liked to be active and to explore since I was a kid, and I'm proud of the adventurous, curious heart that I've cultivated. I moved to New York because of this spirit; now that I'm here I treat my weekends as never-to-be repeated opportunities for discovery. But my compulsion to be busy adds tension to my life and to my relationships.
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